THE RESPONSORIAL OUT NOW

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“I have lived a relatively lonely life.  And I cannot say I am altogether displeased with this.  I cannot tell you how to use your smart phone, nor can I tell you what it is like to be drunk with love or lay on your back and facing upward with your stomach pointing to the sky.  I have not been able to lay on my back since I was six, but I do sometimes go to the bar and the other night I met a man named Zachary who convinced me I have this one story to tell.  It goes like this:”
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If you decide that you would like to hear the old man’s story from the bar, you may order a “choose your own adventure” by bravely clicking the large red button above.
If this frightens you, do not click the large red button.
If perhaps you find that you are bored, or feel weak standing alone in the silence of thought, whatever the case, you could also close this webpage and click other provocative and graphic links customized on your behalf without your consent in your search engine.
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selected decisions:
1 samuel 31
aleksander gabyshev
https://www.larcheusa.org/findings-of-larche-internationals-inquiry-into-jean-vanier/
laurus, eugene vodolazkin

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My interest wanes, stretching and stretching, one thing in very long lines until multiple points of fascination and momentum, falling and falling overlapping, a current rushing past my musing eyes until the diminution of millions of points becomes engorged upon fattened lines of boredom and neatly stacked movements, habits.  I cannot catch up.  I cannot hold the goddamn thing long enough for my brain to love it before I need to love something else.  So I pick up my smartphone and make love to it by stretching its screen miles above my head—more infinite than I could ever hope to become—as it is more infinite than I will ever be—I worship it: the godhead one in one, one ‘n done.  My interest wanes.  I am stretched until all my parts are not parts but parts of my parts.  And when I finish I snap back, elastic, wet rubber pulled inward.  And I am smaller than before.  So I pick up my smartphone to be stretched once again.

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